Gone, With The Wind.

It's the heart afraid of breaking,
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking,
That never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken,
The one who can't seem to give.
And the soul afraid of dying,
That never learns to live.

Saturday, August 15, 2009 @ 2:57 AM

Byebye Blogger ( For now )

Everybody says blogger has problem. Now I see it. Hahaha. Alright then, I shall temporary shift to my wordpress, I created quite some time ago. It was meant to be a secret.. But nevermind, what is for me to see only, is privated. :P Meaning only aku buleh see, kau tak buleh. Wahahaha. Pardon my malay cause I'm not a malay. Alright this is my wordpress: www.xmsrandom.wordpress.com. (:

Sunday, July 19, 2009 @ 3:53 PM

Sweetmare

WHEEEEEEEE. I had a.. sweetmare. Hahahahaha. It's sweetdream + nightmare. Don't tell you what is it about! :P It kinda suck to see people starting on their revision and making this last lap towards the 'O's and me sitting here with my lazy bum doing nothing, rotting my day away... I still have a situational writing to complete, and Amaths worksheet. BUT, I don't have graph paper. HOW?????? :O Die, I think I better go now, before I kill you with my drama cells. Hehehe. BYE!

Saturday, July 11, 2009 @ 2:00 AM

No Matter What

" If only tears were laughter. If only night was day. If only prayers were
answered. No matter what they tell us. No matter what they do. No matter what
they teach us. What we believe is true. "

Ooo, it's 2am. Yupp, 2am and yours truly have not gone to bed. Makes no difference, I don't get dreams anyways, even if there is, it'll be nightmares. Anyway, this week was fun and rushing, somehow. I love blogging in wee hours, somehow I'm able to truly be myself, I don't have to hide anything. My misery, my worries and all.

So many thoughts ran through my mind as I read others' blogs. Friends. Not that I want to interfere in anything, what I might say below are just mere thoughts of yours truly, please do not think that I'm talking about you or whoever.

It sure is nice to have a friend whom you are comfortable with, sharing all the laughter and fun. And, indeed, there's a Chinese saying, " 患难见真情 ", if you'll allow me to translate, it meant only in times of trouble, you will see true feelings. ( Pardon if my translation is inaccurate. ) Really, when you're in need, you get to see who are the ones who were really " be there for you ".

And do you know? How much hurt we suffered from friendships, or any relationships, just reflects how much we'd actually really cherish it. It's indeed a sad thing to see best friends to good friend to friend to strangers.. Actually, I want to ask right now; How do we actually cherish a friendship? Define the meaning of backstabbing, lying, gossiping in friendships for me. Is there a definite meaning? Or each and every one of us has each a different definition?

I believed that, each of us has a different definition of everything. That's why, there will always be friction in relationships of any sort. How big is big? How small is small? How smart is smart? How beautiful is beauty? If only we have a lubricant for relationships, to reduce the friction.

I've been through 2 broken friendships. I know how it feels like to lose your best friend, someone whom you regard as ' Important '. But yet, it's this two broken friendship that taught me something new. It taught me to cherish my other friends ( Best/Good/Just ), I learn not trust so easily. ( I had at least 2 people saying that I'm gullible ). Most importantly, I learn to forgive and forget. (:

So people out there, I know it's not easy, but still, forgive and forget. (:

p/s: You can so totally ignore whatever I type above. You see, I'm tired and sleepy, my brain is not functioning right. :D

Enjoy your Saturday people. (:

Sunday, July 05, 2009 @ 11:51 PM

Quick update. I'm at my cousin's house. Yes, almost 12am I'm still at my cousin's house. Dinner was great. Chicken chop made by Mum dearest, it was delicious! Love it to the maxxxxxxxxx! I think that's all I have, I'm leaving soon. Muahahahaha. I watched finish BOF episode 14. Yay! Go Jun Pyo, go Jun Pyo, go Jun Pyo! Woots! Hehe, bye.

Friday, July 03, 2009 @ 9:20 PM

Comeback

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Yes yes, I know, I said I won't blog, but, I just cant resist! Today is soooooo absolutely fun! I was laughing like a real laughing machine. Oh, by the way, I changed my skin. Nice right? Haha.

This morning took temperature like again. Then Amaths quite fun ar. Mrs. Chew ended early cause she say we were like @_@. And she say our reaction very funny something like that. I don't like this chapter! Cause I suck in proving Similar triangle and congruent triangle. In fact, I never knew how to prove them. =/ Shocking right. Wahaha. I shouldn't be happy about this fact.. Oops.

Then Maths it was okay.. Then P.E!! Now that's where the fun starts. :D Took height and weight, everybody grew shorter. Haha. Then Mini Tennis damn funny. We were like starting the ball joke. If you get what I mean. Then we were made to walk from one end to the other end while bouncing the ball with the tennis racket. When you're done, you could actually stop. But, some people continue playing with the ball and having so much fun. So some of the girls who have finished, and as told by Mr. Singgam, watch what the other people did and laughed at them. It was real hilarious. I hit Raudhah and almost Rachel at their face. XD

Then we had to play in pairs. So I paired with J. Then we started hitting the ball, I started serving but obviously failed. I have no idea what I was doing. I thought it was badminton or something and served like badminton. XD So I asked J to serve. The very first hit, came to my stomach. Then we " Hahahahahaha ". Throughout, it was hit then laugh then hit then laugh and it goes on and on. And our ball hit somewhere else too, not very convenient for me to say here. Hehe. Then Mr. Singgam say we keep laughing in front of the whole class though he didn't point out. But obviously, J and I knew very well who he's talking about.

Then History. Mrs. VJ side-tracked ALOT. So J,R and I played this in-class MSN thing. Haha. Mrs. VJ was talking about people getting hanged and MJ. (*) Then after school, waited for the 4E2 people. So long but very funny ar while waiting.

Aiya, lazy to type le la. Type so much liao. Just need to know that I laughed alot today. (: I'll explain the (*) some other time. Hehe. Byebye!

Wednesday, June 03, 2009 @ 6:45 PM

Time to say Goodbye.

Hi hi hi hi hi hi.

I hereby announce, this would be my last post until O's are over. Yeah. I won't be online on MSN, maybe I will. But it would be for awhile and not everyday. And I just did a quiz on FB, so cool, posting it right now. Bye peeps. (:

Objective: Are you mean and sarcastic? Have you ever answered people ‘meanly’ and sarcastically? If yes, show us how mean and sarcastic you are! If no, then you should try at least once in your life with this note.

Rule: Respond to these as sarcastic/mean as you could.
(YR stands for Your Response.)

If an annoying person says:
1) I am cute.
YR: Yeah right, adorable but UGLY.

2) I am the most beautiful/handsome...
YR: Yeah, so? And by the way, an advice for you, get prettier friends.

3) See, everyone likes me because I am rich and famous!
YR: Then, I suggest it's time you get new friends.

4) Unlike you, I am perfectly multi-skilled. I do everything very well from sports to academic thingy..
YR: I must have been quite a big threat for you even bother to take the time to compare. Thanks man. And one more thing, you do well, not perfect.

5) You don’t know me? I am a Bruneian artist; I have albums.
YR: Oh really? That's kinda sad for you. This just proof you are not that famous.

If an annoying pretty woman/handsome man says:
1) I know you like me
YR: Time to see a doc and get over your hallucination honey.

2) What are you looking at? I am not interested in you!
YR: I never say you were, guilty conscious?

3) Sorry, you are nice but seriously not my type!
YR: Thanks but neither are you.

4) UNLESS you are rich, then don’t dream that I will get a ride with you!
YR: Did I ever mention giving you a ride? I doubt so.

5) Look, I am pretty/handsome; I can make people hate you!
YR: Hah, you are just jealous people like me more than you.

If an annoying extremely ugly woman/man says:
1) I think you and I can make a good couple.
YR: Wow, it's time you get a new mirror.

2) May I have your cell phone number? please please plase?
YR : Yeah sure, 999. 24/7 Call me anytime.

3) Hi, wanna hang out? I want you to be with me the whole night...
YR: Sure thing, get yourself a bed and dream on.

4) What do you like about me?
YR: Sad to say, nothing.

5) I want you to say that I am pretty/handsome and you like me sooooo much!
YR: You are so goddamn ugly and I sooooooo really hate you!

If your enemy says:
1) Hi bitch!
YR: Didn't know there's a mirror in front of you. But still, nice effort you've made in front of the mirror. Keep it going.

2) You smell like shit!
YR: I know it's you, but it's okay, I won't tell anyone.

3) I know you hate me because I am much better than you?!
YR: Thanks man, this proof that I'm a threat to you.

4) What an ugly creature you are!
YR: Oh, you too. We are of the same species afterall. :D

5) I am going to your ass in this race for sure!
YR: You're aiming for ass only? That's a shame.

If your annoying ex says:
1) I still love you...
YR: Ooo really? But honey, I don't

2) I know you still love me!
YR: Then I guess you must have been stuck in time.

3) Please, go back with me honey/hubby...
YR: Move on sweetie.

4) Please call me...
YR: Sure thing, but how 'bout considering paying my bills too?

5) The break up hurts me so much...
YR: Wow, but you're still able to stand in front of me, couldn't be that bad.

If an annoying salesperson says:
1) Wow! You are so pretty/handsome!
YR: Thanks man.

2) Seriously, I used this product and i've changed!
YR : Really? Good for you, but I don't need a change right now, I'm loving my present.

3) We are giving a discount up to 50%!
YR: Wow, save it for yourself won't you?

4) This one is good sir/madam. Buy sir/madam, buy..
YR: Yeah okay, bye.

5) That product is not good; it causes pimples all over your face.
YR: That explains your face.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009 @ 7:29 PM

Don't forget.

OhMyGod.

I shall blog while I still can. My MYE results suck. I got no A, not a single one. I was so so disappointed in myself. Even my Chinese can't get an A. ): Oh well, my parents know I failed my Amaths which I ~~scored~~ got like 30+ and that my other subjects were only 50+, 60+. I guess I got them a tiny bit prepared for tomorrow's PTC. Since Sec 1 to 3 , I have successfully avoided PTC. And now, I could no longer avoid it.. DREADS.

And I so love Mummy. When she knew I only failed my Amaths and other subjects got only like 50-60+, she never reprimand me. Despite my father's sort of scolding+saying, she said to him, something like, It's okay, she failed one subject but still manage to pass other subjects, she still can catch up slowly. I was so touched and sort of surprised. Cause Mummy use to add salt to the wound. But now, she showed me how understanding she could be, as a mother. I love you Mummy, I really do, though I don't say it to you often, face-to-face, I really love you and I am so glad and fortunate to have you as my mother. Despite your scoldings and nagging, despite how often you tell me I'm ugly and fat ( Haha ), I know they were just jokes of yours and you don't mean what you say. I think I should stop, or it'll turn into some Mother's Day speech post and my eyes will cry till it drop out.

Anyways, the past two days, I've been sleeping real late resulting how tired I was in school. I think it's the first time ever, I slept so long during lessons. Teachers keep coming over to my table and tap me. I was really tired, and really tried my best to open my eyes, but still, I was too tired.. But luckily all those happened in lessons before recess. After recess, I was like so much more energetic.

Sitting beside Marcus today was fun. Haha. He keep want to sleep, but I keep wake him up on purpose. And it felt really great to be able to catch the ball during Chemistry in Organic Chemistry. So cool, and I think I was real dumb during lesson. Cause he was saying the prefix for 4 is " but-" and its supposedly pronounce as beeee-you-t. But I keep pronounce it as b-ut.

Today was Ain's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (: And guess what? We sang her 'Happy Birthday' like thrice. Okay, maybe not sang, shout is more appropriate. Haha. Anyway, I've been playing with blue-tack recently, and I made a rose by accident. I was just rolling it back and it became a rose. I guess I live up to my nickname; ART. Here's a picture of it:

And I remember mentioning that I drew for my Biology notes and I promised to post it up and here it is: Look at the "PROTEIN"! I drew that myself okay, by just looking. I didn't put it at my monitor and trace hor. Whee, so proud of myself. Wahaha. I know they are not of the same size, but whatever. :P

I don't think I have anymore to say. Byebye. And lucks people, O' level MT is on Monday. (: A1!!!!!!!

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